jspl Raising Children

When I was younger I always wanted children without a doubt. The older have become, the more I ride the fence on the issue. A few years back I began questioning having children. I thought that kids would put a damper on my plans for travel and “having fun.” I realized that your idea of fun changes once you have kids. Part of the reason I don’t want to have children is because I am afraid I will screw them up. When we talked about how some people are afraid they will break the babies they are holding, well I am one of those people. I’m not afraid I will actually break them, but that they are uncomfortable while I hold them, or that I am not supporting their head right. My boyfriend knows this so he has been making me spend more and more time with his nephew so I can have the chance to hold younger babies. As far as correcting children when they do something wrong, I feel like I know the right way to handle the situation, but acting in that manner is another issue for me. For now I am fine with holding other people's babies and may want one later, but I still fear there are too many ways to raise children and that it might not come natural to me.